And calling to him a child, he put him in the midst of them and said, “Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 18:2-4
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The five year old had one question on her mind this weekend-"Bubby, do you have a boyfriend?" After tell her no she proceeds to tell me that she has a boyfriend and that his name is Jack. He calls her pretty and she calls him handsome but they don't kiss because "she is too small." It kind of reminds me of "Do you want to build a snowman?" from Frozen. She, like Ana in the movie, means well and doesn't understand that there are reasons why I say no. Oh to be a five year old again with a great imagination and not a care in the world.
God calls not only for us to have childlike faith but to be humble like a child as well. As a teenager, I am somewhat self sufficient and self dependent. Yes, I depend on my parents for a lot but I also do a lot for myself. I have all of the earthly possessions I can possibly imagine and yet the only reason I have these things is because of my Heavenly Father. Jesus giving up his life I the reason that I can even come to the feet of God even though I am not worthy of Him.
I am sometimes not humble at all. I don't give God the glory when all glory should go to God. The most recent time was winning gold at HOSA. Yes, I praised God and thanked Him for getting me through and helping me with my anxiety but I didn't fully humble myself and give all the glory to Him. When people asked me about it, I didn't bring Him up, I talked about myself. It's like that with a lot of my accomplishments. I am haste to talk about what I did, but then I forget that it was all God.
Even with my faith, I'm not childlike. I love to know what is going on and when it is going to happen. I am a planner. I plan things. I know how my day is going and how I am getting from one place to another, ect. The Bible says "Trust in The Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding." That has been crazy hard for me to do. Anyone who knows me, knows that I like to be in control. Some people call it being bossy, but I call it being a leader. This is also hard, considering I'm graduating in 59 days and don't know where God is going to lead me once I get to college.
