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I am going to be honest, as I hope I have been in the past. This summer I was not apart of the faith as well as I should have been. I received a scholarship through a church that I have yet to go back to. I haven't gone through some crazy phase where I stay out every night and never return home. I barely leave my house, except for work and to run to the grocery store. On the Sundays that I didn't work, I chose to stay at home and sleep. I would think to myself, "Katy, you've worked hard this week, you deserve a day to sleep in." Or, "The preacher isn't going to preach anything that pertains to you, might as well stay home." And well, I'm kicking myself in the butt. I have missed out on 3 great months to which God could have placed a hand on my heart and got me on fire for His word.
Since I am about to be in college, I should have been going to church. Church has always a crucial aspect of my life. And I know, going to church makes you as much of a Christian as standing in a garage makes you a car, but, for me, church has been what has made me be a better Christian because I have always received the Word that way. After every church service, I would always feel better about myself and feel like I have a better relationship with God, but recently I didn't feel that way and I don't know why.
I think God chooses sometimes to let His people wander off a little bit, but keeps a watchful eye to make sure they don't get in too much harm. I mean, He did give us free will. I feel like that is what He did with me. I was the one sheep that wandered off, and He came and got me and brought me home. I was the little brother that squandered and He met me half way with loving arms and told me I was finally home. I've always thought God can be sneaky, but that is what makes Him a great God. We don't know what He has in store for us.
What Brought Me Home?
I believe that this is all God's doing. There is a girl that I went to high school with named Pollyana. Well, Pollyana gave up social media for ONE FULL MONTH!!! When she finally returned to Facebook and Instagram, she was challenged to say 10 facts about herself. Her first fact went something like this: "Jesus us the center if it all. Everyday I am thankful of this grace, mercy and goodness in my life!" I realized int he moment of reading that, that I wasn't living the life that God wanted me to life. I wasn't doing what the faith says I should do. On basically every picture of Pollyana's is a Bible verse, and what I love about her is, she posts a picture everyday; so everyday I get to see a new Bible verse.
How do I plan on returning?
A lovely couple from my dad's church got me Jesus Calling by Sarah Young for graduation and my mom got me The Maxwell Daily Reader by John C. Maxwell for my birthday. Every morning I have been getting up and reading both books. I feel like it centers me for the rest of the day. I keep one copy of Jesus Calling in my car as well along with a Bible, so before work I reread the daily devotion and look at it from a different perspective. Along with both of those books, I have started to watch some of Newspring's sermons to try to get some of God's word and ways into my life again. When I go off to college (in a week!!!) I will be trying different churches in the area to see which one suits me as a college student and a daughter of God. I have started to re-listen to Christian music and feel God through that way. And, basically, I plan on reaccepting God into my life and living by His plan for me.
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